Hello world hope you're listening

So it's the study week. Suffice it to say I had at least done quite a fair bit of revision. The first paper's coming up in 2 but I can't say for sure that I am a hundred per cent ready for it. I mean who is right?

And again, time always flies without me realising it. It's almost a week since school had ended and I can't exactly word how I'd spent the past seven days. And then Dad is flying back tomorrow. Pretty distraught at the thought of not being able to spend more time with him while he's around. He's been pretty busy with work while I'm busy... idk studying? Doing my own things? Then again it takes two hands to clap. I don't know for sure how long it'll be before he comes back again, maybe another half a year? A year? And then I don't even know if I'll avail myself to spend time with him or with the family as a whole when he comes back. I know I sound like a needy five year old but I think I've already climaxed at this juncture where my family is above all else. Honestly I don't even remember how or when I come to this. And realistically I didn't see my circumstances change immediately when I had this mindset; I didn't instantly change to be a more obedient daughter or a better sister. I can see that I still have this little little flaws but one thing I'm sure of it is that things are changing. The progress is slow but God's hand is moving. And it is truly heartening to know that faith works, that hope ensures.

Nevertheless, God I just need Your strength and guidance every single day in every single way.