Alone but not lonely

I was left alone for 3 days last week. Reason being the brothers went for their school camp and the mother flew back to Indo to settle her IC and stuff. It wasn't a big deal to me, I wasn't all "hell yeah I have the whole house to myself so I can do all the shit I want". Maybe t'was because I had work for the 3 days while I was by myself. But then I actually felt more... relieved when they're gone. The absence of the rest of the family members just screams out the tranquility and homely feeling that the house was intended to bring. Truth be told I was enjoying it; I enjoyed waking up to see no one in the room, to hear nothing but just absolute silence; I enjoyed preparing my own breakfast and eating alone; I enjoyed cleaning up the house without having being nagged to do this or do that. This is but of course temporary, and I am certain that I would give the opposite reaction if it were to be permanent. Even so, I did treasure these moments.

Made me think about how I have done some things by myself; I have shopped alone, ate in public places alone, watched movies alone. I can't honestly say I thoroughly enjoy doing all these alone, but somehow it helps me quell my self-consciousness and my insecurities. I don't take each bite of my lunch thinking "omg that person is definitely thinking that I'm a freak coz I'm eating alone" like how I always used to.

Kinda reminds me of what my mum used to rebutt with each time I tell her she is doing something (that I thought is extremely) embarrassing in public - "It's ok what, it's not like you're not going to see these strangers again. Even if they do, they won't even remember you! So you don't need to bother with what they may/are be thinking about you." Which slowly but surely, has become the mindset that I have now. Probably one of the reasons that I am not that afraid of doing silly things in public. It's not that I always take every possible chance to embarrass myself in front of everyone, simply put I guess I have much more self-confidence than I had before.

Besides, why would anyone else's opinions matter when only His opinion is what matters?