I don't believe in horoscopes. Never interested in it and never will.
Meet-the-Parents tomorrow and was told that it'll be a Nani-TKH combo (AGAIN). One is the FT whose subject I clearly failed, and the other is the HOD of Science whose subject I didn't do well in. Mum, you've no idea how scared I am to go to school tomorrow. I can't stop thinking about what the teachers' comments would be omg thinking about it drives me nuts. Maybe first they're gonna tell me that my results are shit. And then they're gonna compare me with all the other geniuses in class and tell me how much I pale in comparison to them. Then they're gonna start comparing with the girls and say how much they've all improved except for me. Wah then what next? They're gonna hand me a knife and order me to kill myself?
Being in a good class gives so much pressure. The kind that makes you feel like burying your big head into a hole because even those who have done well feel like killing themselves coz their results are "garbage". And it's not the kind that motivates you to do well and outdo them, it's the kind that makes you feel like you're completely and utterly worthless and helpless, the "you-shouldn't-even-be-here" kind. Maybe coz I'm a DSA student so I shouldn't even be in this school in the first place. So many times I feel this way, but who am I to say this when a friend is going through the same thing, except much worse? I should just stfu already.
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